spiritual rambling, thoughts and frustrations

I’m sick and tired of wet rag witchcraft, religion and spirituality! Love light positive energy banish the negativity only love and healing! I’m sick of sickly sweet spiritual things I have a headache from pastels and lilacs. I’m sick of self help magic or magick with the unnecessary K I’m sick of anti negativity and false positivity I’m sick of phrases like ‘living my best life!’ ‘Self love!’ ‘Be your authentic self!’ Yuk!!

 I’m sick of religion and spirituality that sees these things as separate and that denies the reality of God, Gods and other spirits or even reject the reality of miracles and miraculous events in the religion’s structure, faith and traditional history. 

I’m done with the criticism of the occult communities against mainstream communities embracing moderate mystical metaphysical spiritual things! No one has an exclusive right to any of it no one has a monopoly on religion spirituality or the mysteries of existence. Who are you to say some can and others can’t? Who are you to ridicule another on their journey of faith or magics? Your multitudes of initiations and your copious amounts of drug taking and excessive drinking definitely don’t give you the right to be self righteous and judgmental. 

Stop stopping others from exploring their spirituality and spiritual transformation stop claiming cultural appropriation and persecution when the only persecution is self made and all individuals and cultures are guilty of cultural appropriation. Stop criticising condemning and boycotting! 

Start learning and start guiding and teaching when correcting it needed. Guide  and teach with real answers and truth not halfhearted responses or arrogant entitlement. Teach and open all the doors you keep barricaded with unnecessary rules of secrecy and an ego centric attitude that goes with it. Remember always you are not the god or power you worship but a fellow servant and pilgrim on the journey. 

I don’t believe witchcraft is meant to be about the attainment of enlightenment or some sort of spiritual transformation or transcendence. I really don’t think that’s the role of witchcraft. It may be a by product or mystical exploration in the practice of witchcraft but I don’t think enlightenment is the goal of or in witchcraft. 

I’m skeptical about witch cult theories and crypto paganism whilst I believe that folk religion and magic and folk lore and medicine may have syncretic and  connected links to indigenous cultures pasts and shamanic like practices but for the most part they are essentially Christianised and are a type of folk Christian practice rather then “underground paganism” or pagan witchcraft if there really was such a thing. I definitely don’t believe that real witches were executed during the witch trials in history. There’s no witchcraft religious persecution! Get a grip already! 

I have no issues with the Devil in witchcraft but would argue that this may not be the Judaic Christian understanding of the being at least in the medieval concept of him. Satan and/or the Devil can’t do anything significant without the will of God allowing him to do it. The medieval theology gave the Devil too much power, power he never had. 

Stop being anti Christianity just because you are a witch pagan or polytheist these modern traditions exist because of Christianity and the church. Stop with conspiracy theories they help no one and only perpetuate misinformation. 

“Also there is no such thing as a "traditional witch", witches are intrinsically eclectic, syncretic, and incorporate everything under the sun and moon into their practice, there is no such thing as orthodox witchcraft, so I see no contradictions here, I've known witches who used Christian prayers, I've known witches that took up with Santero orisha, it is all still witchcraft.”

There’s no such thing as a universal religion of witchcraft 

I’m sick of feminist bull shit witchcraft! I’m sick of the man hating stereotyping goddess spirituality bollocks!! Get over yourselves and stop perpetuating the evils that were perpetuated upon you women! Get a grip already and stop creating a false history about matriarchal cultures that never existed or supposed patriarchal conspiracies. Just stop it! It’s dumb! 

If all gods are one and if everything is connected then Christianity is as much a part of paganism, witchcraft and hermeticism as any other religion or belief system. 

Books of shadows and grimoires are not a form of scripture in witchcraft. 

January looking back and looking forward

2019 has begun and January is nowmeandering it’s way to a close and we stand on the threshold of a new month. 

January is a month that seems to drag its feet, a month that seems to bring sadness after the celebrations of Christmas if you follow the secular understanding of Christmas and believe it is done when the sun sets on 25th of December. From a religious and traditional Christian practice the season of Christmas doesn’t end till the 6th January when the season of Ephany starts and carry’s on to the 2 February with candlemass a celebration of light  and the remembrance of the presentation of Christ in the temple and the blessed Virgin Mary’s Purification. All of these observances and celebrations are points in the new year to remember the divine is with us, revealing himself to the world and recreating our nature in his image, by his incarnation we are a new creation. 

January is a slow month but I think it is intended to be slow, giving us a feeling of getting nowhere fast. That is the perpose of the month and it’s effect on us. January says slow down, breath, thinking and contemplate the new year from a new beginning a new creation if you will. January is the month of introspection a time to go into our selves and make changes if you choose to or to reenergise our motivation for a new year. 

This month was named after the Roman god of thresholds, beginning and endings the two faced god Janus. He looks both to the past and to the future and represents the stop gap or slowing and dragging nature of January. January says stop make peace with the year that is gone it has passed, remember the joy and learn from the sadness. January also says look to the future of the new year and the new creation move forward with hope and mindfulness take the lessons of the last year and grow in this new year. Always remember the centre of it all the present moment, that small narrow point between the two faces of Janus. That mindful moment of right now.

   

Christ’s incarnation is about right now the new creation is not just a hope for the future or a belief of something to come. It is right here right now. The blessing of love is right here right now what we seek is right here right now God is truly with us right here right now. Right now is within us and part of us the whole time. God is within us and part of us the whole time. 

As January closes remember what you are seeking is already within you. Let us move into February ready to be purified and put our contemplation into loving action ready to grow as the first signs of spring reveal themselves and the new creation is born through us. 

I missed Mass today

I’m skipping church today. I missed mass today, I know it’s not a good thing to do. The Eucharist, the holy sacrament, the Mass is the central part of faith and worship the mystic unity between God and humanity, heaven and earth with all the saints prophets and angels and ancestors. I love the Mass, so why am I not going today? 

For me there is such a thing as too much church, too much obligation and a very real sense of religious and spiritual burnout. I didn’t go today because I didn’t want to sing in the choir this morning I didn’t want to pretend that I’m good at singing in a tired and drained state.  I didn’t want to put on the happy grin of Christian fellowship and communion. I didn’t want the annoying small talk and the sensation of not being heard or listened to or that I’m annoying. I know I’m annoying I ask odd questions that on one thinks of. 

I love Christ, even as a spiritual eclectic and syncretic and a warlock witch, I love Christ and his church and sacraments I love the catholic faith in all its diversity. Sometimes it is best to come away from the community for a time. To commune with God and heaven in solitude and with the holy scripture of creation. To partake and receive Christ in the sacrament of silence, solitude and rest. To go to Christ in the wilderness of simple mundane life before kneeling before his holy and real presence at is glorious altar. 

I didn’t go to mass today. 

A short rant

One of the many mystic, religious and spiritual traditions I follow and practice to some extent is Witchcraft and my path or tradition is a blended one shaped by many religious and mystic occult idea and concepts. Not going to sugar coat it, I’m a book learned witch (warlock is also a label I like!) I haven’t been part of some powerful initiation through some so called ancient tradition or order, I don’t have a long family heritage of mystic or witchcraft practice. I started my journey as a curious teenager buying books experimenting and learning on my own. My choice mostly. 

From this learning journey I’ve come to the view that witchcraft is definitely not a religion and it’s certainly not “the old religion” as some claim. I reject crypto paganism ideas I reject the witch cult underground servival ideas and I reject any notion that the witch trials involved the execution of any one remotely practicing witchcraft or that it was some sort of religious persecution. I reject conspiracy theories and concepts of a universal pagan witchcraft religion. I reject the historic claims of Wicca but don’t reject it entirely as a modern branch of Witchcraft and/or a type of Mystery tradition. This is something that has taken along time to accept. At least from what I know of Wicca as a tradition outside of initiation and through books. I reject the constant anti Christian and anti Abrahamic religion conspiracies and retric.

While my path and personal practice has been shaped by Wicca and these ideas, it’s easy to see, when reading actual reliable history, that it doesn’t fit and appears completely made up and contrived. Now I’m not completely against Wicca I started with Wiccan ideas and rituals and I have a fondness for some ritual structure of that tradition. But I’m definitely not Wiccan. 

If I’m truly honest I don’t really know what I am or what my path is. Hedge Witch or Warlock are terms I like but they are loaded with baggage. I guess I’m some sort of syncretic, Anglo-Catholic Christian mystic that has a personal blended tradition shaped by folklore, folk magic and folk religion with elements of Occult esoteric ideas, modern witchcraft, neopaganisn and animist spirituality. 

blessed sacrament and Anglican prayer beads

Chaplet of the blessed sacrament with Anglican prayer beads to be said in adoration of the blessed sacrament in meditation on the body and blood of Christ 

Cross 

+ in the name of the father and the son and the Holy Spirit Amen 

Apostle creed 

Initiatory bead

Our Father 

Hail Mary 

O God make speed to save me (us),
O Lord make haste to help me (us),
Glory to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit: As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be world with out end Amen.

Cruciform beads 

Angus dei

Lamb of God, you who take away the sins of the world, have mercy upon us.

Lamb of God, you who take away the sins of the world, have mercy upon us.

Lamb of God, you who take away the sins of the world, grant us peace.

Week beads 

Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament have mercy on us! 

At end of each week say:

Glory to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit: As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be world with out end Amen.

At end of four weeks on the first cruciform bead or on holy medals say:

Oh sacrament most holy oh sacrament divine all praise and all thanksgiving be every moment thine. 

Cross 

+ in the name of the father and the son and the Holy Spirit Amen 

Heavenly Father 

We thank you for feeding us with the body and blood of you son our saviour Jesus Christ, through him we offer our souls and bodies to be a living sacrifice, send us out in the power of your spirit to live and work to your praise and glory 

Amen 

blessed sacrament and Anglican prayer beads

Chaplet of the blessed sacrament with Anglican prayer beads to be said when unable to receive communion, in meditation on the body and blood of Christ 

Cross 

+ in the name of the father and the son and the Holy Spirit Amen 

Apostle creed 

Initiatory bead

Our Father 

Hail Mary 

O God make speed to save me (us),
O Lord make haste to help me (us),
Glory to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit: As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be world with out end Amen.

Cruciform beads 

As I cannot now receive Thee, my Jesus, in Holy Communion, come, spiritually into my heart, and make it Thine own forever.

Week beads 

Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament have mercy on us! 

At end of each week bead say:

Glory to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit: As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be world with out end Amen.

At end of four weeks on the first cruciform bead or on holy medals say:

Angus dei

Lamb of God, you who take away the sins of the world, have mercy upon us.

Lamb of God, you who take away the sins of the world, have mercy upon us.

Lamb of God, you who take away the sins of the world, grant us peace.

Oh sacrament most holy oh sacrament divine all praise and all thanksgiving be every moment thine. 

Cross 

+ in the name of the father and the son and the Holy Spirit Amen 

Heavenly Father 

We thank you for feeding us with the body and blood of you son our saviour Jesus Christ, through him we offer our souls and bodies to be a living sacrifice, send us out in the power of your spirit to live and work to your praise and glory 

Amen

blessed sacrament chaplet and Anglican prayer beads

Beads of The Blessed Sacrament, Chaplet Prayer

Blessed Sacrament Beads

Blessed Sacrament Fathers

These consist of a medal of the Blessed Sacrament and 33 beads, recalling the 33 years of Christ's life on earth.

On the medal one makes a spiritual communion as follows:

As I cannot now receive Thee, my Jesus, in Holy Communion, come, spiritually into my heart, and make it Thine own forever.

On each bead say:

Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament have mercy on us!

Anglican prayer beads 

Anglican prayer bead sets consist of thirty-three beads divided into groups. There are four groups consisting of seven beads with additional separate and larger beads separating the groups. The number thirty-three signifies the number of years that Christ lived on the Earth, while the number seven signifies wholeness or completion in the faith, the days of creation, and the seasons of the Church year.[4]  The groupings are called "weeks", in contrast to the Dominican rosary which uses five groups of ten beads called "decades". The beads between are usually larger than the "weeks" beads are called "cruciform" beads. When the loop of beads is opened into a circular shape, these particular beads form the points of a cross within the circle of the set, hence the term "cruciform". Next after the cross on Anglican prayer bead sets is a single bead termed the "invitatory" bead, giving the total of thirty-three. The beads used are made of a variety of materials, such as precious stones, wood, coloured glass, or even dried and painted seeds.

Anglican prayer bead sets are made with a variety of crosses or, occasionally, crucifixes. The Celtic cross and the San Damiano cross are two which are often used.

Unlike the Dominican rosary used by Roman and Anglo Catholics, which focuses on the germane events in the life of Christ and asks the Virgin Mary to pray for their intentions, Anglican prayer beads are most often used as a tactile aid to prayer and as a counting device. The standard Anglican set consists of the following pattern, starting with the cross, followed by the Invitatory Bead, and subsequently, the first Cruciformbead, moving to the right, through the first set of seven beads to the next Cruciform bead, continuing around the circle. He or she may conclude by saying the Lord's Prayer on the invitatory bead and/or a final prayer on the cross as in the examples below. The entire circle may be done thrice, which signifies the Holy Trinity.[4]

• The Cross
 In the Name of God, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Amen.


• The Invitatory
 O God make speed to save me (us),
O Lord make haste to help me (us),
Glory to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit: As it was in the beginning, is now, and will be forever. Amen.


• The Cruciforms
 Holy God,
 Holy and Mighty,
 Holy Immortal One,
 Have mercy upon me (us).

 The Weeks
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God,
 Have mercy on me, a sinner.

  
• The Lord's Prayer
 Our Father, who art in heaven,
hallowed be thy Name,
 thy kingdom come, thy will be done,
 on earth as it is in heaven.
 Give us this day our daily bread.
 And forgive us our trespasses,
 as we forgive those who trespass against us.
 And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.
 For thine is the kingdom,
 and the power, and the glory,
 for ever and ever. Amen.


• The Cross 
I bless the Lord.
(Let us bless the Lord
Thanks be to God.)[5] (Wikipedia)

It would be interesting to merge the chaplet of the blessed sacrament with the pattern of the Anglican prayer beads, as there are similarities. And to include the blessed mother in the prayer.